Time to breathe!

Ok this is the first time in a month that I have had time to breathe. I have been through a lot of ups and downs. God has been there with me all the time. Urging me on when I thought I could not go on, holding my hand when I thought no one was there, and holding me when I cried. He never left me. For a while I was carrying this heavy load. God helped me though to see that he could make that load light. He is so good to me!

I have been missing James terribly. I hang onto every letter, to every word. I was so glad he called on the 5th, I can not wait to hear form him again. He has always help me to stay focused on God, now I am having to do that myself. I miss his dry sense of humor too. He is starting to bring that into his letters now. I am counting down the days to his return. Its hard to leave him in Gods hands.

Jess is slipping away from me. I can't seem to bring her back. We are always at each others throats. hard to keep the peace and still be mom. I am giving her to God to! I am praying he will help me be the mother she needs. I love her and I want her to have all that God has to offer, I hope she realizes how much she needs him.

I am feeling very Blessed right now. I guess you could say I am up on the mountain waiting to go down into the valley. Its great up on the mountain, but it is down in the valley where we grow.

Robert's birthday was yesterday. We went out to eat, Jess paid for half, the dinner was enjoyable. We are going to take Robert to Chuckie Cheeses for his Birthday on Friday. he can not wait. He is such a character. he says the cutest things, and he acts like he is grown.

David is doing better, I am trying to work with him on not pitching a fit when he does not get his way, we are getting there.

Well guess I better go. I just mailed James another letter. Have fun today and hug someone you love!

Quite for a while!

Well the office is very quite today! I have still been busy, but just getting work done for the fireworks stand. I like it when I can work undisturbed. 

Things are going relatively well for now. I am hoping to relax a little tomorrow. I am not on the schedule to work any where so I can rest a little. I will probably end up at the fireworks stand.

I am waiting for the chaos to break loose!

Well guess I better go for now!

Busy, is there any other way to be!

Oh my I have been busy lately. I have only had a few minutes to miss James.

By the way I have a post card from James. No return address yet, but I am patiently waiting.

Been extra busy with fireworks and friends. I worked Saturday morning, Baby shower Saturday afternoon, and then worked a few more hours, then had supper and watched a movie with friends. It was a good day. Ended up at work on Sunday too. Long story. Seems like I will be working late tonight too. Every time I clear my desk here, it just gets more cluttered. Its ok,  it is good to busy every now and then.

Well better go, work is calling. Have fun in the sun, but don't get sun burn.

James going away party!

The party was a blast. All of James friends showed up. We had hot dogs and hamburgers. I forgot to make the cookies, LOL! We ran out of plastic cups, and then drinking glasses LOL, but we had fun. James and friends played bat mitten, Soccer, Frisbee, and jumped on the trampoline. The adults rambled around and did some of the same. We mostly stayed inside. Check out my facebook page for all the photos. 

I can not believe my baby is leaving me for 9 weeks. I think I will cry when I drop him off tomorrow. 

God has really been working in my life. Church was great yesterday. We learned about fish. It was a great sermon.  Christians were compared to different types of fish. Don't know if I can remember them all, some where good, and some where not. Maybe later I will list them all in a post. I was so happy and blessed yesterday. I still am today.

Jessica and James will be at the mall today, James is spending time with friends. I know he will miss them when he leaves.

We are planning to take a trip to Disney World in August. The Lord willing, it will work out. Jess is not going, because she has been already and James will not be back yet, so just me, Skip, mom and the boys. What fun.

Well better get some work done. God Bless Everyone!

Last Day of School, and the Official start of Fireworks Season

Well today is the last day of school. No more getting the kids up at the crack of dawn. No more teachers calling, homework not done, lunches forgotten, and James taxi service has come to and end, I think!

I now get to look forward to bored kids, late nights up with the kids, and a mess to clean up when the kids have been home all day!

Well fireworks Season officially begins in June, of course I had to get started in May. I have Saturday off to have James shipping out party. Can't believe he leaves on June 9th. I hope he likes it there. I am expecting to get busier with fireworks after that.

Still taking it one day a time with God! I am reading my bible at night, I have been reading in the book of James it is a good book. I am praying more, trying to complain less. and trying to hold my temper. That is really hard. Just seem to blow up at everything. I am catching myself a lot quicker now.

Well need to get some work done! Encourage someone today and tell them that God loves them.

Make Memories, Live in the Moment

One day at a time brings new meaning to me!

I am learning that I can follow God and do his will if I take it one day at a time, actually, I am taking it one hour at a time lol. Have to keep reminding myself to ask is this what God wants me to do.

We had revival at Church this weekend, it was great. I really enjoyed it.

We also went to the museum! It was really fun! The kids had a blast. Everyone enjoyed it.

Can't wait for our next trip.

Watching Diners, Drive Ins and Dives with Robert. Have a great night.

Where can we go? What can we do?

Where can we go, what can we do?

Our lives are so empty, there is nothing new.

We are living with out God, our prayers are to few.

We struggle each day, just to find a way.

He's right there in our path, just waiting to say.

Come to me I will show you the way.

Where can we go, what can we do?

Ask God for the answer, He is the 

one to go to, He will tell us what to do.

God is there waiting, He is waiting for you!

Just one of my poems. Enjoy!

Plans

Its amazing how we make so many plans that does not include God, then we get upset when they never come to pass.

I was talking to my mom tonight, and we have been trying to make plans to go to Disney World over the summer, It would just be me, Skip, David and my mom. Robert, will be going with someone else, and Jess has already been there, and of course James will be at basic. I told my mom I am not making any more plans unless God is in it. It never works unless he is there.

I think that is my biggest issue. I like to be in control. I am praying to let God lead more and I am leading less. eventually I hope that I can let God just completely take over. That complete surrender kind of scares me. I am not sure why. I know that God is in control, and he only wants what is best for me, but for some reason, I keep holding back. I often wonder is it my pride or what? I am praying that God will show me.

I have been working a lot lately, so I have not been to the gym in a while. I am hoping to get back soon. I may have to wait until after fireworks season. I am pacing myself with work this year, trying to take some time so I don't get burned out. We will see how it goes.

Well it is late and the kids are in bed, time to spend some time with hubby and get some sleep.

Prayer Changes Things

Well today things are much better. All is kind of quite on the home front. Just the normal noise of a 6 person family.

Mom cooked dinner for us today, it sure was good. We had Fried pork chops, french fries and corn. All that starchy good stuff. It was great. I will have to work out some tonight after that.

James is vanless for a few days. The break pads had to be replaced and we have been held up due to rain. His Nanny will be taking him to school and picking him up. Bree she did say she could take you and Brooke home.

Skip is resting before we have to head back to church. James is listening to music while playing on the computer. Jess is visiting with Dylan and his family. She will be back later tonight.

Delaine, my cousin went to Charleston this past weekend. They brought me Shrimp and Grits from Hymans, my favorite place to eat when I am there. She also brought me back a little gift. I love going to the market place and getting some White chocolate. It is great.

Wishing I had the day off tomorrow, but no holiday for us! We all have work and school. Will just have to make the best of the day. We are having revival at church next weekend. I am looking forward to that.

Well guess I better go get everyone moving to get ready for church! Have a good one!

Battle Fatigue

Home is a battle field and we are all watching out on backs. Not going to air to much dirty laundry, so I will keep this light.

Tomorrow is church, I can not wait. I have been debating about going in to work. Home would be good, but not safe, I could always stay in my room.

Never knew being a mother would be so hard. I am praying for guidance.

Gearing up for another work week. Only working six days this week.

Well thats all for now!

All work makes me a dull person!

Trying to find a way to spread all this work around. Two jobs is one to many. The office is easy, and fireworks can be, but combined its a lot of hours.

I have to put in 40 hours a week at the office, and now that its fireworks season, I need to use all my spare time there. Use to not bother me. I loved the money coming in and fireworks can be fun. But lately just seem tired all the time. I asked mom if she could cover half of my shift Saturday, I usually work 10 - 9, so i could get some extra sleep. Of course I am already feeling guilty about it and I am considering going in on my day off on Sunday for a few hours. That is not what I need to do!

On the good side, I am spending time with Skip tonight. Not sure what we are doing, but whatever it is I am sure it will be fun.

Last night I invited James to go out to eat with me at Ruby Tuesdays, I had a coupon for a buy one get one free meal. So I am thinking what a good way to spend time with my son before he ships off to basic. Well James had another idea, before I knew it he had 5 friends going, of course he asked and I could have said no, but I am such a sap! So we had dinner with several of James friends. It was nice.

Jess has plans to go help Dylan's Aunt move tonight, she wanted to spend the night and I said no, but I offer to let her go over for a while. It was my way of compromising. I feel like the evil mom a lot lately.

David is doing better, he finally got a sticker one day! He was good for a whole day! WOO HOO! Of course next day we got into trouble, but hey it was only a short note not two paragraphs long. He is riding the bus again and the bus rider says he is doing better. Meds must be working some.

I want to take the kids to the museum. I have free tickets but they expire at the end of this month. I am hoping to find some time to take them. I would like to make it a family thing, but it is hard to get all of us together.

The office is quite today, but I forgot my book to read, which is why this is a lengthy blog today.

Well just a couple weeks before James leaves for basic. I am arranging to have the 9th off so I can drive him to Greenwood, then on the 10th he is off to Fort Jackson. I know he is ready to go. tensions are growing at the house. We are all to strong willed there.

Well better go see if I can find some work to do. Tell someone you love them, and hug a friend today!

To Change or not to change?

That is the question. The answer is change is good if it is what God wants you to do!

I am making a change in my life. I am trying to look at all the blessings, and not at all the problems.

Can't believe that James will be leaving for basic on June 10th. That is so close. OMG I am going to miss him. There will be no on to do my running around LOL! I love ya James!

David is doing better! I am praying that today is a good day in school.

I can not believe that there is only 2 1/2 weeks left of school! I know the kids are glad.

Fireworks season is upon us. I have already started my seven day work week.

I missed the gym most of last week, I need to get back! I have gained weight! Aghhhhhhh. OK that might have something to do with the bag of candy I bought last week, which by the way is now gone.

Church was good. I missed some of Sunday morning, but on Sunday night we got to share scriptures that help us through life. There was a lot of good ones read. Skip really surprised me with his. He is is full of surprises. Love Ya Honey Bunches!

Well guess I need to get back to work. Hug a friend, and encourage someone that is down today!

Masked Faces. Masked Feelings!

Ok Bree, I wrote this for you.

I saw you smile today, I saw the look on your face.
But what I really saw in your eyes, is what you did not want to face.
You wear a mask and wear it well, why is it you true feelings you never tell.
I am waiting for the truth, waiting for you to see,
to know that I am here, no matter what the problem may be.
God put us together, so we can both feel free,
to have someone to talk to,whenever a need we see.
Come lay your head on my shoulder, cry a river of tears.
Let me be a comfort for you, and help you with your fears.
Wear your mask for others, but remember when you are with me,
its your real face and feelings that I long to see.

Love So Amazing

It is wonderful how when you let God handle the situation, how much better it turns out!

Hoping to go to the gym today! I am ready to work out. Trying to add some good foods to my diet. I just started eating salads lately. I only use a little lettuce, but its a start. I bought some Bananas recently, and I am going to try to start eating them, my body really needs the potassium.

I am having Chili today for lunch, a friends treat! I am so Blessed!

David starting taking medicine to help him sleep! He woke up so much easier today! He was kind of out of it though. Hope that gets better. I am praying that he has a good day at school today. They have not called me yet, that is good.

Jess went back to school today. Hope she is feeling better. The doctor wanted her to go back today, he told her she would have ups and downs until she is better, unfortunately there is really no medicine she can take, she just has to stick it out. I am praying for her! She is not happy about not being able to play soccer though.

Poor James is stuck with the kids again tonight. Maybe he will get a break one day!

Well better go, lunch was great! Hug a friend today and tell someone you love them!

Jesus Take The Wheel

A wise girl once said move over to the passenger seat and let Jesus drive for a while!

I think I will.

Jess has been out of school sick for two days. She goes back to the doctor Wednesday. Hoping she will be back in school soon.

My temper keeps trying to best me, I am going to keep giving it to God. Sometimes I speak before I pray though.

I am hopefully going to the gym today. I love to work out, such a stress reliever. Eric has me doing weights. I think he is trying to hurt me LOL. Naww he just loves me and I told him I needed to get strong enough to beat him in a match of arm wrestling. Never happen lol!

Had to cancel our trip to the museum, and six flags, seems its not suppose to happen just yet, Gods driving I will get there when he is ready. If he wants me to go.

Happiness is a choice, what are you choosing today!

Ok I am trying this out. Blogging from my phone. Ready to get off work so I can work some more.

Taking Time To Breathe

OK, its been a while since I blog, just to busy or to tired. My kids are so stressing me out lately! They are keeping me praying, now that I am doing that again (don't ask).



David, my wonderful 5 year old has gotten in school suspension, and kicked off of the school bus. I think something happened that has him out of control, and I am fining it hard to get him back in line! Been showing him extra love and a lot of supervision. Trying to teach him that things will not always go his way, and how to deal with his anger issues in a good way! Keep praying.



Robert, well as usual he is just being Robert. Actually hes my good child right now.



Jessica, well do not get me started. I dread what she will ask next. I feel like she is using my house for a date place for all her friends and that is going to stop. From now on girls only or boys only. That is all I can handle. Not to mention all the deception that goes on, I know she is a good girl, just wish she would hang around with different folks that what she is now. I knew this dating thing would be a bad idea and get out of hand, and it has. I should have stood my ground, but I seem to be giving in a lot lately.

James, well he has always been a very good child, but lately he has began to act more like Jessica. he figures if he does not tell me, I will not say no, so he just does it anyway and just accepts the consequences. James that is the same as being disobedient, I hate it for ya!

I love all my children, they just drive me to God, maybe that is a good thing! Told the Pastor I would try to stop saying drive me crazy, so driving me to God sounds much better.

Well my husband, he is just my husband, I am learning to love him just the way he is, I am hoping he can do the same for me. We are who we are, and only God can change us! If you are reading this baby, I love Ya!

God still doing a work in me! I don't tell many people this, but I believe that God has a certain direction he wants me to go in life, I am not good at following the directions though, and sometimes I veer off the course. God is faithful to keep returning me to the right course. I know the way is straight and narrow, maybe someday I will learn to drive straight and quit zig zaggin through life.

Well gotta go I am expectantly waiting for the good things that God has in store for me. Are you?

Life Goes On!

So today has been a pretty quite day! James just called with a headache wanting to go home, that means clinic tonight so James absence will be excused. Robert is doing well in school, David is having issues. He is not getting along with the other kids and does not want to wake up from his nap. I have talked with him about this, maybe it will help. He was punished last night also.

Jessica is now wanting to leave school early, since James did, told her she had to wait till at least 2:30.

I am still loosing weight. It is an up and down process. Just have to keep working at it.

My cousin and Aunt joined the gym. That makes me happy. A friend of mine named Chalissa joined too. Her and her husband go in the morning though.

I am planning a trip to the state museum with the kids May 23. I have 4 free passes. It should be fun.

On May 30, I am suppose to take James and a few of his friends to six flags. I think that could be fun. I hope it works out.

I have a dentist appointment on April 30, I will see how well I have been cleaning my teeth.

Well have a great day, hug someone and make a friend laugh today!

TRUST

Ok, that is a serious issue with me right now. I want say to much here, but I will say that I am having a hard time trusting any one.

The trip to six flags was a bust due to the incomptence of school officials. James was upset and that upset me more than any thing. I could not believe how rude the principal of Fox Creek was when I went to him about the whole issue. Maybe he had a rough day or something, I don't know, but that really bother me. He is over my school my kids are in. Theres another trust issue again.

I need to get back to where I need to be with God, this is my main issue now. I don't think I trust myself enough to do the things he wants me to do. For the first time today, I did not look forward to Church. We had to leave half way through because Skip had to go to work. can't decide weather I am happy about that or not. I don't know if I can give God what he wants, control. It scares me to death to let go of it!

So does that mean that I don't trust God enough?

Still seeking, still praying, still looking, still trying!

Been there, Done that!

You know last night I realized that I am very far from where God wants me to be. And I was slipping further and further away. Just little compromises here and there, but they were pulling me away.

I was up last night praying and talking with God. I want to serve him, and do his will, but it is not always easy. I have to be willing to forsake all others and follow him, can I do that, I am praying. I could use a friend to talk to, but there's not anyone that I can. So I keep on praying, God said he can meet all my needs! I am praying and waiting.

It lifts a heavy burden off me to be back depending on God, I am not able to do it myself.

Sometimes you wonder why the ones you love and care about can not see how you are hurting, and how you really feel. Guess we get good at hiding things, pretending is so much easier than the real thing. it is so much easier to put on that happy face of contentment than to be glummy all the time. Who needs that.

God is helping me cope. He is a real friend, he promises to never forsake me, to never leave me, and to always be there for me. I am grateful.

Keep on hanging on, we have come to far to turn and go back now.

I've been tired and I've been weary,
I've been footsore on my journey
But I've come to far to ever turn around.
I've seen day when clouds hung dreary
many times when friends weren't cheary.
but I've come to far to turn and go back now.

Chorus:
I am one day closer home, than I've ever been before
In my heart I have a longing just to walk on heavens shore.
In my soul I feel the glory of this brand new peace I've found,
I'm way to close to turn and go back now.

I've been tempted and I've been tested
my progress seemed arrested,
I can truly say God has never let me down.
In the battle I've retreated,
but I've never been defeated.
I've come to far to turn and go back now.

Chorus
I am one day closer home, than I've ever been before
In my heart I have longing, just to walk on heavens shore
In my soul I feel the glory of this bran new peace I've found
I'm way to close to turn and go back now.

Complicated

That's what life can be sometime.

Families are so fragile sometimes. Families are all about compromise and love. and by the way you need a lot of love because love covers a multitude of sins.

Sometimes when you are in a big family, you start to forget who you are, and you get dragged down with all the issues going on. Sometimes you need to turn up the music and turn it up loud. sometimes you need to play an old movie that makes you laugh, just remember that times are not always so bad! 

Of course prayer should be your first course of action, and calling on God is always the best choice.

Sometimes it just helps to remember who you are. Remember that you family loves you even when it does not seem like it, and even when it gets ugly, remember that it will get better again.

Tell your parents you love them, hug your sister or brother, and overall just try to be kind to each other.

Its been a while!

Well its been a while and I have been busy!

Just got back from a week long vacation to Virginia, which James, Jess and Skip made possible by covering for me. James watched the kids and Jess and Skip covered the office most of the time.

I had a really great time on the trip. We went to see the Chesapeake Bay Bridge, that was fun. I love the views from the bridge. We ate at the Restaurant in the middle of the bridge. The fish I had was huge. It was good though. The next day we went to Jamestown, that was very interesting. I love learning about history. Seeing the settlement was nice. It was a long day of walking and picture taking. I especially liked the ships. That was neat, we actually got to go on a couple and see what it was like back then to be on a ship. The next day we went to Yorktown, not quite as big as Jamestown, but just as cool! We also ate at Unos Pizzeria. That food was awesome. I hope to go there again soon. They have one in Lexington, I hope it is as good as the one in VA. On Friday we left to come home, it was crazy and hectic, but we made it back by 10:00 that night. I was glad to be home.

Saturday I was going to stay home and do nothing, but that plan did not work. I ended up at work, working lol! Oh well it was not that bad I guess.

Sunday was Easter Sunday! I was not exactly happy with the Church services, but staying at home and just relaxing, was great!

Well today I am back at work, and I am actually glad to be here. Can't wait to get back to my normal routine. It will be nice.

Well guess better go! Hug someone today and tell them you love them.

Contentment is not easy

Especially for me! I find it hard to be happy in my situation. the bible says to rejoice in all things, because your name is written in the Lambs book of life! I forget that so easy. I take my eyes off God and put them on me, and that is where it all goes wrong!

Today has been a quite day! Skip brought me lunch, it was great! (Thanks Baby) I had sirloin tips and gravy, with a baked potato. Kind of fattning but good! We deserve a treat every now and then!

Jess is going to the movies tonight. I hope she has fun. I also hope she manages to make it home on time for a change.

James has not said what he wants to do, but I am sure it is coming! I get to do some cleaning and laundry tonight ! Woo Hoo! Good thing Jess wanted to go off, she cleaned some last night! She did a good job.

I am trying to get the house cleaned and the laundry caught up before I leave to go on vacation. So Skip will not have to much to deal with, while I am gone!

I have to say that Virginia is calling my name, I am ready to leave. To just have some fun!

Dee is ready to go too. I am calling her on the phone as I am typing. I hope she is off from work.

Little David has been having trouble on the school bus, kids are calling him names and one kid pushed him down in the seat. Mom went to the school and talked to the principle, I think that might have been a mistake, she prob should have talked to the Bus driver first. But hopefully it will get resolved.

Ok well guess I better go! be good to a friend!

Its the little things that matter!

I never knew that I would miss holding his hand, or feeling his touch, but I do. I never knew I would miss the little things. My love tank is quite empty right now! I need to know someone cares! I could really use friend right now!

Well tonight I am home alone, not good for me, it gives me the mully grubs. The kids are here, but they are in bed. Of course I can not sleep!

Today was ok, I did get to go to the gym today! I worked out with a friend named Cindy, it was nice. We just met recently.

James had a concert tonight that I missed, I am not happy about that either, but the circumstances where strained as always! Hope you did good baby! I am proud of you!

Jess has a game tomorrow. Don't know if I will get to go, we will see. Do good girlie!

I should be in bed now, but I can not sleep!

Tomorrow is another work day! Yipeee!

Well 3 more days to my vacation. I need it. need to get away and be wanted! Need to just go somewhere and forget! Guess this what I needed.

Saturday should be interesting. I am going somewhere, to Alabama maybe, with Angela, I think. I would really like to stay home and get things done around the house, but does not seem to work that way!

Saturday night there is a couple coming over that I work with! Hoping that will be fun!

Then there is Sunday! day to worship God and spend with my family!

Well guess I better try to get some sleep! Let God know someone loves them!

Crazy days

Ok today was different! I came in an worked for a few hours, then left for lunch and to run an errand. Then came back and worked some more. Way to much work for me!

Well I went to the gym last night. It was good. I tried a fat burner shake, it was pretty good. Then I went to Angela's and ate a lot of fattening food! That was useless!. We watched Ghost Town. It was funny. I think we laughed more at Brandi and her boyfriend, than the movie though!

I am finding it easy right now to trust in God, I am waiting for the next valley, But I am enjoying the view on the mountain until then.

I am going to the gym again tonight.

Jess has a soccer game tonight, but I am not going, going to wait and go Thursday night. I can not wait to see her play.

I miss going out bowling with friends. I have not done that in a while, it would be fun! I think I also miss watching the race on Sundays, I need to start back again! I love watching racing! Only if I can catch it at the end though lol!

Well I am suppose to be going on vacation with my mom, my cousin Delaine and my Aunt Pam. We are to leave Monday on April 6, 2009. I know I will enjoy the trip and the company. But I am kind of torn. I will miss my family, especially Skip! But maybe the separation will do us good, you know absence makes the heart grow fonder! It is a hard choice sometime.

I am realizing that when you have a close family, it can really put a strain on your marriage. It is hard to find that happy medium. I am friends with a couple that is going through the same thing!
It is hard to make that perfect fit, where husband, or wife is happy and your family is happy too.
I am trying to learn myself how to keep the boundaries straight, I can tell you it is not easy!

Well guess I better go, it is about time to leave work! Think yourself happy today! God Loves You!

Obedient?

OK I was reading in the Bible in 1st Peter, and what should it say? I'm glad you asked!
Wives should be obedient to there husbands in the Lord!

Ok, sometimes I have a real problem with obedience! Hmmmm That is a subject I need a lot of prayer in. I have a hard time with people telling me what to do! I guess I am just to independent!

Well this weekend was good. I spent Saturday working and goofing off, what a combination! I worked for about 2 hours then went to Angela's for lunch! I then came back to work and worked for a few more hours.

I then rented some good movies, I think! Rented: The New James Bond movie, Bolt, Ghost Town, and Hancock. Some where good and some were just ok! I watched the Bond movie with Skip, it was his kind of film. Me mom, the kids and Skip watched Bolt, me and Skip slept through half of it lol! Cat, my bestest friend came over late Sunday and me , James, and Jess watched Hancock. Skip had already seen it.

I cooked Chili, which we ate for supper on Saturday and finished for lunch on Sunday. It was good.

Skip cleaned the boys room, I cleaned the kitchen and me and the kids put up some clothes.

Overall it was a good weekend.

I enjoyed the service on Sunday it was good.

Jess and James are getting ridiculous on there fighting. Jess just called me so I could tell James to turn the radio down. Agggggggggggg. You guys have got to learn to get along!

James is not your sisters fault I make you do all these extra things, even though she is a drama queen, you know that, but we love her anyway. Just hang on, you will be gone the whole summer and somene else will be telling you what to do! I love ya babe, just talk to me and tell me what you are doing more often. We will talk about that later.

Well better go, I am going to the gym soon. Hug a friend, and tell someone you love them.

Through the Fire

So many times I questioned certain circumstances
Of things I did not understand.
And many times in trials, weakness blurs my vision,
and my frustration gets so out of hand.
Its then I am reminded I've never been forsaken
I've never had to stand the test alone.
As I look at all the victories
The spirit rises up in me
It's through the fire
my weakness is made strong

CHORUS

He never promised
that the cross would not get heavy
and the hill would not be hard to climb
He never offered victory without fighting
But he said that help would always come in time
so just remember when you're standing
in the valley of decision and the adversary says give in
Just hold on, my Lord will show up, and he will take you through the fire again.

I know within myself that I would surely perish
but if I trust the hand of God
He'll shield the flames again, again.

He never promised that the cross would not get heavy
and the hill would not be hard to climb.
He never offered victories without fighting,
but he said help would always come in time.
Just remember when your standing in the valley of decision
and the adversary says give in
just hold on, our Lord will show up
and he will take you through the fire again.

Books are a good escape method!

I love to escape to a good book! When life has me down and I feel like I just don't fit in, I can always get into a good book! I can see the story as it is happening, I can just imagine the scenes in my head! Sometimes I can't remember if I read it or saw it in a movie! Sometimes I want to book to go on forever and never end. Then it's back to reality!

No real plans for this weekend! Sometimes I think my life is a joke. Tonight I will ride around with Skip and go where ever he wants to go, tomorrow, I will ride into town with Skip and go to work at the office, I have to work on fireworks, then Skip will pick me up later and we will go to the fireworks stand. Then who knows, you know I really hope that then I get to go home, I so want to go home and just sit there for a while and do nothing, just sit and watch tv!

We are dumping the boys at moms again, I never get to see them anymore, always to much to do! I want the simpler life back.:) Well at least on Sunday we have Church! I can not wait, a day that I get to just Focus on the Lord and rest in his presence! I don't have to worry about making someone else happy, I don't have to worry about my job, just loving God. That sounds great!

Been getting the mully grubs lately! That's a drag! I have got to figure out how to have some fun! I just need to do more fun things. I am working on that!

James is gone off to fellowship with the FCA this weekend, Jess is currently at Soccer practice and then I think she is going to a movie. I should probably go with her, LOL!

Oh well, guess I will get back to that book! Keep thinking yourself happy, I am working on it myself!

To sleep or not to sleep!

That is the question! I can not get enough sleep lately! I am trying to speak rest and strength into my life, but today I just don't have it in me. I can hardly stay awake! There is no enough time in the day to do all that I want to do! I wish we had about 8 more hours in the day LOL!

God has really been blessing my me lately! Of course you know who does not like that so he is fighting me hard! I feel like I need a rest. Makes me think of that verse in the bible, do not get weary in well doing, well I think I am very weary in well doing!

For the first time in a long time, I wanted to stay home from Church last night and just rest! But that is not what I should do. I need Church, it helps me make it through the week, keeps my Spirit going. God renews my strength and helps me make it through the week. I need to learn how to draw from that strength, even when I am not at Church.

I think I am tired of making decisions to. my mind just wants to stop working! I need a break from all this thinking! LOL But life must go on!

I am taking James to the clinic tonight so he can get an excuse for missing school, stupid rules! Well hopefully the Doc can give him some meds to make him feel better! I am hoping to work the gym in after taking James. We will see how late it is, I might have to work out at home.

I have been wanting to do something with the boys, but I just can't seem to work anything out! I am working extra hours so I can take my mom on this trip to Virginia! If it was not for the fact that my mom and aunt are really looking forward to the trip, I would just stay at home. But I know they are excited, so I am praying and trying to make it work. Trying to keep people happy is a hard job, but it is worth it!

I am trying to decide what to have for dinner tonight that does not cost any money. This is getting hard. I am glad I get paid tomorrow!

Well guess I better go! Think your self happy today!

Ok here are some more popular sayings in the Bible

The King James Version of the Bible has been enormously influential in the development of the English language. It ranks with the complete works of Shakespeare and the Oxford English Dictionary as one of the cornerstones of the recorded language. After Shakespeare, the King James, or Authorized, Version of the Bible is the most common source of phrases in English. The King James in question was James I of England and James VI of Scotland. He didn't write the text of course, he merely authorized it, hence the name that the book is best known in the UK (King James Version , or KJV, being more commonly used in the USA).
The King James Version was translated by 47 biblical scholars, working in six committees. It was first printed in 1611 and was by no means the earliest English translation of the Bible. It was pre-dated by several other partial or complete translations, notably John Wyclif's translation in 1382 and William Tyndale's in 1528 - the latter forming the basis of a large proportion of the KJV.
What raises that version above other versions of the Bible in terms of its linguistic impact is the fact that the language used has persisted into the present-day. Many of the phrase used are still commonplace. Here are some of the many phrases that originated in the Bible (most, but not all from the King James Version):

A bird in the hand is worth two in the bush
A drop in the bucket
A man after his own heart
A multitude of sins
A thorn in the flesh
All things must pass
All things to all men
Am I my brother's keeper?
An eye for an eye, a tooth for a tooth
As old as Methuselah
As old as the hills
As you sow so shall you reap
Ashes to ashes dust to dust
At his wits end
Baptism of fire
Beat swords into ploughshares
Bite the dust
Blessed are the peacemakers
Born again
By the skin of your teeth
Can a leopard change its spots?
Coat of many colours
Eat drink and be merry
Faith will move mountains
Fall from grace
Fight the good fight
Flesh and blood
For everything there is a season
Forbidden fruit
Forgive them for they know not what they do
From strength to strength
Get thee behind me Satan
Give up the ghost
Good Samaritan
How are the mighty fallen
In the beginning was the word
It's better to give than to receive
Lamb to the slaughter
Let not the sun go down on your wrath
Let there be light
Living off the fat of the land
Love of money is the root of all evil -The
Love thy neighbour as thyself
Man does not live by bread alone
Many are called but few are chosen
My cup runneth over
No rest for the wicked
O ye, of little faith
Out of the mouths of babes and sucklings
Physician heal thyself
Sour grapes
Spare the rod and spoil the child
The apple of his eye
The blind leading the blind
The bread of life
The fly in the ointment
The fruits of your loins
The powers that be
The root of the matter
The salt of the earth
The spirit is willing but the flesh is weak
The wages of sin is death
The writing is on the wall
Thou shalt not kill
Three score and ten
To cast the first stone
What God has joined together let no man put asunder
Woe is me

Famous or well-know sayings from the Bible

Famous or well-known sayings from the Bible (got this off the web)

The English language (as well as other languages) has been full of phrases and proverbs from the Bible. "Cleanliness is next to godliness" is not one of biblical origin. Neither is "God helps those who help themselves." That one is from Poor Richard's Almanac. Here's a listing of oft-used phrases which do come from Holy Scripture.

"A law unto themselves" Romans 2:14
"A house divided" Matthew 12:25, Luke 11:17
"A man after his own heart" 1 Samuel 13:14
"Apple of my eye" Deuteronomy 2:10, Zechariah 2:8
"At my wit's end" Psalm 107:27
"Blind leading the blind" Matthew 15:14, Luke 6:39
"By the skin of our teeth" Job 19:20
"Can a leopard change his spots?" Jeremiah 13:23
"Don't cast your pearls before swine" Matthew 7:6
"Drop in the bucket" Isaiah 40:15
"Dust of the earth" Genesis 13:16
"Eat, drink, and be merry" Ecclesiastes 8:15
"Eye for an eye" Exodus 21:24, Leviticus 24:20, Deuteronomy 19:21 Matthew 5:38
"False prophets, which come to you in sheep's clothing" Matthew 24:24, Mark 13:22
"Fell on rocky ground" Matthew 13:5
"Fight the good faith" 1 Timothy 6:12
"Golden calf" Exodus 32
"Good Samaritan" Luke 10:25-37
"Hammer swords into plowshares" Isaiah 2:4
"He gave up the ghost" Luke 23:46
"He that is without sin among you, let him cast the first stone" John 8:7
"Handwriting on the wall" Daniel 5:5
"How are the mighty fallen" 1 Samuel 1:19-27
"Labor of love" 1 Thessalonians 1:3
"Letter of the law" 2 Corinthians 3:6
"Many are called, but few are chosen" Matthew 22:14
"Man shall not live by bread alone" Deuteronomy 8:3, Matthew 4:4
"More blessed to give than to receive" Acts 20:35
"My brother's keeper" Genesis 4:9
"No peace for the wicked" Isaiah 48:22, Isaiah 57:21
"Out of the mouths of babes" Psalm 8:2
"Pride goes before a fall" Proverbs 16:19
"Put your house in order" 2 Kings 20:1, Isaiah 38:1
"Red sky at morning" Matthew 16:3
"Salt of the earth" Matthew 5:13
"Signs of the times" Matthew 16:3
"Soft answer turns away wrath" Proverbs 15:1
"Stood by the stuff" (a reference to troops that guarded supplies) 1 Samuel 25:13, 30:24)
"Strait and narrow" Matthew 7:14
"Suffer fools gladly" 2 Corinthians 11:19
"Sweat of your brow" Genesis 3:19
"The blind leading the blind" Matthew 15:14, Luke 6:39
"The love of money is the root of all evil" 1 Timothy 6:10
"The truth shall make you free" John 8:32
"There's nothing new under the sun" Ecclesiastes 1:9
"Thorn in the flesh" 2 Corinthians 12:7
"To everything there is a season" Ecclesiastes 3:1
"Twinkling of an eye" 1 Corinthians 15:52
"Wars and rumors of wars" Matthew 24:26, Mark 13:7
"Weighed in the balances and found wanting" Daniel 5:5
"What is truth?" John 18:38
"Where there is no vision, the people perish" Proverbs 29:18

Another one for my hubby! I love this Song! "Lets Hear It for The Boy"

LET'S HEAR IT FOR THE BOY

My baby he dont talk sweet
He ain't got much to say
But he loves me, loves me, loves me
I know that he loves me anyway
And maybe he dont dress fine
But i dont really mind
Because every time he pulls me nearI just want to cheer

Lets hear it for the boy
Lets give the boy a hand
Lets hear it for my baby
You know you go to understand
Whoa, maybe he's no romeo
But he's my lovin one-man show
Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa
Let's hear it for the boy

My baby may not be rich
He's wathcin every dime
But he loves me loves me loves
We always have a real good time
And maybe he sings off keyBut thats alright by me
Because what he does he does so well
Makes me wanna yell

Lets hear it for the boy
Lets give the boy a hand
Lets hear it for my baby
You know you go to understand
Maybe hes no romeo
But hes my lovin one man show
Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa
Lets hear it for the boy

Maybe hes no casanova Still his kisses knock me ov-ah
Hear it for the boy
Lets give the boy a hand
Lets hear it for my baby
You know you gotta understand

Oh, he dont score at bowl-a-rama
Still you gotta thank his mama
Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa
Lets hear it for the boy
Hear it for my man
Let's hear it for my baby

God said it and that makes it so!

You have to forgive to be forgiven! But what does forgive mean!
Forgiving means forgetting and letting go of all the hurt and pain that was caused!
Forgiving means loving unconditionally! forgiving is a choice we make!

Our lives consist of choices that we make on a daily basis! We choose to get up, we choose to be happy or sad, we choose to be tired or blessed, we choose to obey God or listen to satan! What are you choosing today!

Last night was a busy one, but it was good! I worked till 6:15, then I went to the gym. I worked out for a while, then I went home and invited a friend over that has been depressed to work out some more! Then I put up some closed and did some dishes! Then it was definitely time for bed LOL!

I slept great and I feel rested and refreshed today! I am totally out of Library books and I think that could be a sin! I love to read, I need a book, LOL :). Well I am going today hopefully to get one. I think I am also suppose to take Jessica to get her prom dress! That should be fun! Me and Jessica have completely different taste, but she has to wear it, so I try to let her get what she wants!

James got his uniform this weekend! He is having a fit cause everyone keeps telling him its cute LOL. Ok James I think you look really great in it! How bout that! Can't believe my baby is growing up! AWWWWWWWWW! Maybe one day I will let him leave home LOL (just kidding James).

Well better go get to work! Hug a friend, be kind to someone and remember that God loves you!

Mary, Mary Quite Contrary, How Does Your Garden Grow.....

Ok Sunday we learned about sowing and reaping! We learned about planting our Spiritual gardens! Hmmmm sounds like work to me! Ok maybe it is, but it will be well worth the effort!

God says that every seed that we sow, whether it be love, kindness, hate, anger, generosity, selfishness, then that's what we will reap! So if you help someone, someone will help you. If you yell at someone, someone will yell at you! If you give away your coat, you will get something in return! Hmmm sounds easy doesn't it. The evangelist that spoke at our Church Sunday said something great, she said if you sow bad seeds, you better pray for a crop failure! Hmmm.

So I have been thinking about the seeds I have been sowing. All last week I spoke seeds of tiredness on my life. I kept saying how tired I was and the more I said it, the more tired I got. You know what, on Friday I realized what I had been doing. So I came into the office and someone asked me how I was, and I said I am doing great, I ma not speaking tiredness in my life any more, and you know what, even though I had slept poorly the night before, I was not tired all day! I felt good. it worked.

Ok people time for some positive thoughts! Tell yourself that you are happy and Blessed today! Remind yourself that you are special and that God loves you! And if you are in a slump, hang on Gods going to bring you out!

Random Thoughts

That's me today, just full of them!

I went to the mentor program dinner yesterday! I met James mentor, he seems nice! I am still not a hundred percent about this. I am trying hard not to take this as an insult to my parenting! I am an old fashion mom, I would like to think that my kids could talk to me about anything, but I guess times are changing, and of course that pesky temper of mine might keep them at bay!

God had been blessing me abundantly lately! I (and Skip) have a new car! Believe me when I say that this family needed a third car!

I have been praying a lot lately! By the way , that is a good thing! I have to remember that life is not all about me, it is about what I can do for God, and what I can do for others!

Our happiness should not depend on how we are feeling or what has or has not happened! We should be happy just knowing that our name is written in the Lambs book of life! What more do we need to be happy about! One day Jesus is coming back to take us home, a place where there will be no more sorrow, no more tears, no more bills, no more sickness, no more bickering, no more sadness!

No one here on earth can bring us true happiness, God give us parents, friends and loved ones to help us on our way, to encourage us, to laugh with us and to cry with us, but our true happiness must come from God!

I went to one of Jessica's soccer games Tuesday! I actually enjoyed it. I brought my book, just in case, but I ended up watching the game any way! Jess did not play, but the team did good!
I am hoping to see her play soon!

James has his next RSP this weekend I hope he is ready!

I seem to be having problems getting to Church on Wednesdays! I have missed the last three Wednesdays and that does not make me happy. I keep letting things get in the way! It was taking kids to the doctor one week, ran out of gas in the car the next week, then we had the mentor dinner, that was suppose to be over at 6pm and we did not get out of there until 6:30, so we did not make it to Church again! ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! Ok, nest week I am going, even if I have to leave everyone at home, this is crazy. I need Church!

Well I did not have time for breakfast this morning, and I did not have time to fix any thing for lunch, and I doubt I will be home in time for supper! I can tell this is going to be a great day!
I think I am going to have a slim fast for breakfast and lunch. I will just eat supper late tonight.
I need to lose a couple more pounds anyway!

Well guess I better go! Hug a friend today, and tell someone they are special! God Loves them!

Catching Up!

Well it has been a while since I last posted!

Friday, I went with Angela after work. We took Brandi to get shoes and her nails done for the military ball she was going to! We then ate at firehouse subs. It was good. Skip and I rented some movies on the way home and spent a quite night watching movies and enjoying each others company.

Saturday was a strange day all together. We left early so Skip could do a computer job. I went to the office to do a little work too! Mom forgot Roberts medicine, so I had to go back home to get it! When I was on my way back home, I called my Best friend Catherine (yes we have the same name, its great) and she says. me and dad are going to pizza hut for lunch wanna come, and I am like well..... I just got a sub from firehouse, and shes like you can always put it in the fridge, so of course pizza won out! It was fun! We laughed through most of the meal! Of course my sub never made it to the fridge, I think it is still in the car LOL!

So then I picked Skip of from his computer job and we went to get him and eye exam and price out some eye glasses, we just ended up buying them.

Skip had won movie tickets, so at 7pm we had to be at the theater. Since we still had some time to kill we went to the car dealership to look at trading the van in, well..... we ended up looking at a used car, if things work out, we will have a new car today! How did that happen!

Well we went to the movie! I have one thing to say! Do not let your kids watch the Watchmen! There was nothing but sex. violence and more violence! It was gory and gruesome. It was way to graphic, and it really did not have a good story plot! Its hard to find a good clean movie anymore!

Ok after that we were tired and went home!

On Sunday My cousin Delaine and my Aunt came over to eat Lunch with us! It was fun, I enjoy there company so much! We had baked spaghetti, salads and french bread! We also had some fresh fruit and powdered doughnuts! (That was healthy)

Church was good on Sunday, I enjoyed the message! Sunday evening was short but sweet!

Ok need to get moving this morning! Have a great one today! Hug a friend and tell someone you love them!

Just Thinking!

Well I have been thinking about God a lot lately! God and my life and my family! I think if we prayed more we might go through less, if we praised more we might be more Blessed, and if we thanked more we would be happier!

Ok easier said than done!

I had a salad for lunch today, it was good! This weekend should be a quite one, I hope. Robert had to go to the doctor yesterday, he has a soar place on his leg! The doctor gave him some antibiotics. It should be better soon.

I hated missing Church last night! It seems like every Wednesday something is keeping me out of Church! This has got to stop.

I am not getting enough sleep lately! I am so tired all the time! I am having terrible headaches to. I do not know when I am going to catch up on my sleep! I need to pray and ask God to help me get over whatever is keeping me awake! I usually sleep through anything. I don't know whats up with that.

Sometimes I miss seeing Robert and David, we get home late at night and they are in bed, or they spend the weekend with nanny, because we have so much going on! Sometimes when they are there though I am to tired to spend quality time with them. I need to make an effort to spend more time with them.

Jess has a soccer game tonight, I hope they do good! I have not had a chance to go to one of her games, but I would like to see her play! I bet she is good!

My babies are growing up so fast!

Ok gotta go! Thank God for what he has done for you, things you see and the things you don't!

New Beginnings

Well today is a new day! God has given me another chance to do his will and to do what is right! I am so thankful!

Yesterday was a good day! Talking with friends is always good! Did not go to the gym but it was ok. Spent the night with Angela running a few errands! It was fun!

Skip and I are making some changes in our lives, for the better! Sometimes change is good! As long as we remember to keep God in the center, we will do fine!

As I sit here this morning I am reminded that we can not take one moment for granted, God said we are not promised our next breath! Live for today, and live life to the fullest, you will not regret it.

Gotta go get breakfast and lunch going! Treat a friend nice today, and smile at someone.

When God Made You!

I remember the first time I met Skip, It was on the phone, we talked for hours. We talked on the phone daily for a while. Then some friends of ours decided that we needed to go on a date, so they took us. i don't remember where we went that first time. Might have been Teresa's, I am not sure. But I know we went there a lot. I will never forget the first time he told me that he loved me. He had just dropped me off at my grandmothers house. He kissed me and told me that he loved me. I was in shock. Back then i had a low self esteem, I could not believe that a boy was in love with me an that quick. We went on many dates after that. At first we only went out with other friends, but then I brought him home to meet my parents and we went out own or on after that. We went out daily, even on school nights. We went to the movies, out to eat, to play putt putt, bowling, funsville ( a game room). We were pretty much inseparable. I think we ate, breathed and slept each other! I believe it was the most superlous happiest time of my life! I never knew that love could be so great. After a couple of years of dating, Skip gave me an engagement ring at Christmas, I don't think he was proposing yet, but mom just went ahead and planned the wedding LOL! I don't think either of us was prepared for the work it took to be married, but we were in wedding bliss for the first year, then realty kicked in! We have had our ups and downs, but God is not through with us. We still have many years to look forward to!

So I am dedicating this song to my husband, who I love and cherish!

When God Made You
It's always been a mystery to me
How two hearts can come together
And love can last forever
But now that I have found you,
I believe That a miracle has come
When God sends the perfect one
Now gone are all my questions about why
And I've never been so sure of anything in my life

chorus:
I wonder what God was thinking
When He created you
I wonder if He knew everything I would need
Because He made all my dreams come true
When God made you
He must have been thinking about me

I promise that wherever you may go
Wherever life may lead you
With all my heart I'll be there too
From this moment on I want you to know
I'll let nothing come between us
I'll love what ever you love

chorus:

He made the sun He made the moon
to harmonise in perfect tune
One can't move without the other
They just have to be together
And that is why I know it's true
You're for me and I'm for you
Cause my world just can't be right
Without you in my life

I wonder what God was thinking
When He created you
I wonder if He knew everything I would need
Because He made all my dreams come true
He must have heard every prayer I've been praying
Yes, He knew everything I would need
When God made you
When dreams come true
When God made you
He must have been thinking about me

Just Me!

Well I did get to to the gym last night! I got to work out and I got to talk to a Friend! It was nice!

did a lot of praying on the way home last night, it helped! It usually does!

Skip had the house cleaned and dinner cooked when I got home last night! It was nice. I am wondering did he do that for me or him! Well guess I want know unless he tells me!I am just glad the house was clean!

I was very tired yesterday when I came home! Had a bad headache, so I ate and went to bed, which was bad because it was early, and of course I woke up at midnight and could not go to sleep for a while! Was up until almost 1am. Now I am tired again today! I am praying for God to give me strength though!

I did not bring any thing for lunch today, so I am not sure what I Will eat! I do have a few cans of soup here, so I will probably eat that!

I have lost 9lbs on my diet so far! God has really helped me with that! I am so blessed!
I actually was able to walk for 10 min on the elliptical machine, that was an accomplishment for me!

Well I need to go to work. Hug someone today and tell them you love them!

Its just me!

Working today, nothing new there! I don't know if I am going to the gym tonight or not! Skip is not coming into town tonight (at least he says he is not) so I would not have a ride home, unless James and Jessica stay! That means they would have to sit around for an hour and half while I work out! I just can't see me asking them to do that! Of course James would, but thats not the point! Oh well it is all in Gods hands now!

Seem to be back on my diet now! No bread since yesterday at lunch! I sure I can keep this up! I lost another pound today! Woo Hoo for me!

Well better get to work!

I Choose You!

We have so many choices to make in our life! Today I made some bad choices, choices based on my feelings! Aggggggggg! I have got to stop that! It is so easy to lash out when I am hurting! And today I was hurting! I wish that was something I could talk about, but some things you just don't blog about!

I missed church tonight! for two reasons. One I forgot to set my living room clock ahead, and the other I just did not want to go! I know that is not good, maybe I am a little mad at God, but I should not be! I made my choices,and he lets me, that's just the way God is! He loves us enough to let us make our own choices! So maybe we should start letting the ones we love make there own choices, even when they hurt us!

I have to remember that my joy comes from God and that he loves me more that I could know! today I am choosing to seek forgiveness and to be happy!

James wants to join the mentor program at Fox Creek! He wants to be mentored! I think I am trying not to take this as an insult to my parenting, but it is hard. I would hope that my kids could come to me with any thing, but I guess there are just some things you don't talk to your parents about! I love you any way James!

By the way Bree, James blew it Sat night, part of the conditions for letting him come was for him to clean the kitchen, and the den and to take out scraps. Which he did not finish, his dad is not happy! But I did enjoy meeting your parents it was fun! We should really get together and do something soon!

Well I got dumped again today! Guess I was not the chosen one today! But I did enjoy Lunch with my mom, James, Jess, Robert and David. It was fun, and I got to watch some movies!

Jess is now with her dad, they were last seen at a her dads friend house! Guess they will be home late. It is quite here! James is in his room and the boys are watching tv. I think they watch too much.

My diet is not going to well, I never been one of those to stick to something to long! I love going to the gym though, and I will keep at it! I am hoping to loose some weight and clean up some, I am trying to impress my man, maybe he will fall for me all over again, who knows! Maybe I can get some of that lost love back! I know that God is good! he will help!

Ok David wants me to read him a book, gotta go! Show someone you love them today!

Emptying the trash!

Seems to be a theme going on here! You know a pastor once preached on that subject! Empty your trash cans! You know if we would empty the problems in our life, just throw them away in Gods big trash can, and put on the lid so we or anyone else can't get them out, We could then let God fill up that empty space with his love and grace! Then we could pour that blessing out to someone else!

God is so good, He just keeps on blessing me, over and over again! I love that song, James you will have to post the words to that one!

I am so happy today! What is one of those words Brianna uses!:) Oh well, just can't remember!

Do not know what my plans are for today, will just have to pray about it, and go from there.
I have a feeling that this is going to be a great day!

I've got a feeling everything is gonna be alright! That a song I will save for later.
Have a blessed day everyone, encourage someone with nice words and a smile today! remember God is watching you!

Here Goes

I am having a snack right now! Not the usual snack though. I am having a glass of milk! Ok its not a snack, but I am calling it that! I think I am arguing with my self!:)

Well today has been really quite! I have been looking at new books to read, and I still have 3 out from the Library, two that are on hold that just come in, but I will have those finished in a few days! I love to read!

I lost 2 pounds of body fat today! This is weird! I weighed 224.5 yesterday morning. I now weigh 226, but I know that I gained a Pound in water and lost two pounds of body fat. Somewhere in there I must have gained some muscle. Just a little bit.

I really enjoy working out at the gym. I wish I could be home earlier, but something always comes up! Last night I actually got home at 9:30 that was great!

James and Jess did a really good job of cleaning yesterday, I was impressed! Good job guys!

Skip and I watched Cold Case last night and enjoyed each others company! It was nice!

Well guess I need to get back to work! Be nice to someone today. Smile at someone!

I'm Going Under

A song written by me! Thank you God for this song!

Somethings holding me back Lord, Its standing in the way!
Lord you can move this mountain, so i can go the right way.
I am struggling to make it. I need you more each day.
Lord help me to make it, Lord show me the way!

Chorus:
I'm going under, I'm sinking in this sin,
I'm going under, I need your help again.
I can't make it Lord, show me the way.
I can't make it Lord, help me stand today.

I keep treading water, I can't last to long.
I don't think I can make it, I know I'm not that strong.
Lord I want you to carry me and lead me on my way.
Take me Lord into your hands and help me not to stray.

Chorus
I'm going under, I'm sinking in this sin.
I'm going under, I need you help again.
I can't make it Lord show me the way.
I can't make it Lord, help me stand today.

All I need is you Lord to show me the way.
With your strength I can make it, Lord teach me to pray.

Repeat Chorus.

Who Cares?

That was the topic of our sermon this morning!

If a sparrow falls who cares?

How many hairs are in your head? Who cares?

God does! It says so in Matthew Chapter 10 you should read it, its a good one!

God cares so much that he knows the number of hairs on your head! If he knows that don't you think he knows everything else about you! If he cares about the sparrow, don't you think he cares about what you are going through!

Yes he does. Talk to him, he says his sheep know his voice! He is waiting to hear from you!

Today was a good day! I cooked lunch for me, Skip, the kids and my friend Catherine! she was over using my computer and Internet again! We watched a few shows together, and I took a nap! I was tired. The kids went to Church today, I think they enjoyed it, I did not hear much about it! I know James said it was different from being at his church. OK Bri, now you have to come to church with us!

Honestly, I Love my church. Sometimes I do not want to go, (you know I would rather sleep) but I love it there! I love being able to sing and lead the praise and worship! I love the freedom of being able to worship God! I also love worshiping with my family. My cousin Delaine, who is also my best friend is just like me, we always think a like and some time we go through the same things. I know I could tell her anything! We are taking our moms to VA for a week in April for Mothers day, I can not wait! we lead Praise and Worship together! It is so great! Sometimes we make the same mistakes in the song at the same time, that is God. We love to sing together too!

Well kids are talking and family is having fun! Have a good night! :)

Ok Bri here is your crying smiley face! :::::)

Family, Friends, and Memories

When I was growing up I had the best child hood ever! My family lived around me, my cousins lived beside me and in front of me. My grandmother was near also. They were all in walking distance! We played games like Hide and seek, softball, freeze tag and lots of others. My grandmother loved to cook, and she was great at it! I loved to go to her house and eat. Every morning before school we would go to my grandmothers house before we caught the bus, she would fix us grits and toast. I can not believe that she made instant grits taste so good. And she used to have those little Debbie cakes. Mmmmmmm they were so good! We would work the crossword puzzles, put together jigsaw puzzles, and we loved any kind of challenge, she bought us all a Rubik's cube when they first come out. And the peg game, we had to figure out how to leave just one, and we did! LOL! OMG she cooked the best catfish stew, and vegetable soup, I have never had any vegetable soup that taste so good!

Unfortunately, we all took her for granted, we thought she would be around forever, my grandfather he was sick a lot, he had a pace maker, and he was diabetic, and he had gout real bad. The doctors told him one time that he only had months to live, he lived a lot longer and he outlived my grandmother.

I think we take God for granted a lot! We go on our way and we don't thank God for his blessings in our lives. We are not thankful for the things we have and we always want more. Take some time today to talk to God and thank him for what he has given you!

Today I am going to enjoy what I have, a nice home, a wonderful family and great friends!

Whatever!

Ok that is how I feel right now. Seems my family all has hearing problems! (Including Me) Whats up with that! I am so tired of everyone misunderstanding everyone, and no one telling anyone anything! AGGGGGGGGGGGGG!

OK I have had my little fit I am better now I think.

My best friend is here and she surfing the net! You just do not know what an accomplishment that is! I am so surprised that she is on there!

She is into Japanese Anime, I am not! Matter of fact I do not like it at all! But I help her on the web sometime. She is doing pretty good though!

I am going to the gym tonight to work out, and at some point and time I hope to eat, I forgot my lunch and had to eat a Mayo sandwich, not very fulfilling! Of course the bank account is almost empty so guess I will either be eating light or eating late, when I get home, which is usually after 10pm. It is the price I pay for going to the gym, I let the kids go home after dropping me off, so they are not home so late, then I have to wait till Skip gets off and works out, and then I get to go home.

I guess it is worth it to loose some weight. I am fixing to take a Motrin for my headache, from not eating enough lol. I need to get my brain fixed so I can remember my lunch. And I wonder were the kids get it from!!!

OK need to go, guess I don't have any spiritual wisdom today, just not feeling spiritual!

Happiness....

Comes from God!

You know it has taken me a long time to figure that out! And sometimes I still do not get it. It is easy to let your circumstances dictate how you feel, but we should be happy knowing that we are alive, that we are loved by God and if we are serving him we have a heavenly reward. The Bible says rejoice that your name is written in the Lambs book of life. How can we not be happy about that.

Today I am choosing to be happy, even though I am tired and feel pretty bad. Who says we have to go by how we feel!

I had a good lunch today! I had a salad and some grilled pork chops! It was pretty good! I finished the book I started yesterday, it was good, can't wait to read the next in the series, I would prob be reading it now, but it is in the van at school with James! Oh well gives me time to blog and time to do the Bible Study for tonight.

We are studying revelation right now in Bible Study! It is getting pretty intense, but I am enjoying studying and learning more about Gods word!

Well guess I better get to lesson planning! Have a good day, and choose to be happy today!

My Slide Show

Bored, Me?

Ok I never thought I would say this , but I am bored. I am sitting here at work waiting for a ride. I could leave now if I had one! I am trying to convince Skip to take me to Ihop tonight for free pancakes, of course that is not on the diet, so he said no! :(. Oh well I had to try!

I put a really funny picture of Skip on facebook. It is him sitting a Myabis with a "pirate hat" made from a cloth napkin. You had to be there it was great! I laughed for a while! I love it when we get together with friends and just enjoy ourselves. Playing games, talking or bowling (Which I love) it is just so much fun! Friends are great to have! :)

Ok guys one of these days I am going to figure out how to get songs on here! By the way Brianna I don't think I liked the song you had playing today! Just to busy for me!

James should be on his way to get me, I hope. I wonder if I give them to much freedom, am I spoiling them to much. I try to give them the freedom to make good choices, to learn from there mistakes, sure hope its working!

Overall I think I have great kids. Oh don't get me wrong, we have our moments, but doesn't every parent and child.

Ok, think I will see what Skip is up to before I have to leave! Have a good one!

I'm trading my sorrows!

One of our praise and worship songs!

I'm trading my sorrows, I'm trading my shame!
I'm laying them down for the Joy of the Lord!
I'm trading my sickness, I'm trading my pain!
I'm laying them down for the joy of the Lord!


I have the joy of the Lord today! He is what makes me happy! No matter what may happen, no matter who may hurt my feelings, or make me angry, I have the joy of the Lord.

I am so excited! Friday night is girls night out! Woo Hoooo! I can not wait!! Chalissa is taking, me, Delaine, and Angela out to Red Lobster to eat. It should be great!

Went to the gym last night, but was not feeling well. Only worked out for 30 min, going to try to make up for that tonight.

I am constantly having to remind myself that Gods grace is sufficient. It is hard not to worry, but the Bible says worry is a sin! Hmmmm, I am having to repent a lot lately! I think I need to read my Bible more!

All the kids are now feeling well enough to go to school!

Jess is grounded, of course she says for no reason, guess I disagree. She is still a good girl, just use to getting her way!

James is busy getting ready for Basic! He got a taste for it at RSP this past weekend. I know he had fun too! He was named Marksman is shooting (this is a good thing) and he only got called out a couple of times! Told him he needed to shave better! (LOL) They never listen to mom!. James if you are reading this start running LOL!!

Robert is just Robert. He has this insatiable (is that a word) curiosity that gets him into trouble a lot. He has to know about everything, and he wants to be involved in everything! I need to tell him that curiosity killed that cat, but thin I am thinking that satisfaction brought him back LOL!

David, well lets just say that David is loved, even though he throws those fits, gets into everything and yells about nothing, we all still love him and we are praying for him to grow out of this stage! Of course sometimes punishments helps too! I feel like I am punishing him all the time though! Just need to figure out how to get him to channel that bad energy into good energy. God will make a way though!

I am concerned about work, everyone say a prayer! Business has been slow! We have tenants moving out of the office building and warehouses! I have never seen so many buildings available!
Keep waiting to hear from my boss!

Well guess I better go get some work done, not like there is a lot to do. LOL

Have a Blessed day today!
Tell someone you love them and be kind to someone who is not kind to you!!

Its Sunday

Today is the day that the Lord has made,I will be glad and rejoice in it!

How is it on Sunday morning, we never want to get up! We should be so happy that today is the day the we Can worship the Lord, a time set aside just to praise Him, to hear his Word, to be refreshed.

Today was a good day! I enjoyed Church. The message was good. It was about faith! Yeah we all need more!

I was sad that James missed it, but he will be back soon. Hopefully he will get to come to the evening service. He is at training today.

We had BBQ Chicken for lunch with green beans and home made mac and cheese! It was good. The Mac and cheese needs some work, but its OK. The kids help make it, it was fun.

I am finishing up and old Christmas Movie, its been pretty good! Today has been nice, GOD IS GOOD!

Early to rise, Early to.....

I would say bed, but that never works for me!!!!

We went out with some friends for Skips birthday last night! We had a blast. Angela, Jimmy, Cindy, Tony, Barbara and another couple that I do not remember there name all wen to Myabis (not sure of the spelling) Skip made a hat out of his napkin that he put on his head, omg it was funny! then we went to the couples house,(the ones that I can not remember there name) and we shot off some cool fireworks. Then we played cards all night! Well I did manage to come in around midnight.

My baby (by the way that is James) got up at 5am this morning, me being the good mom that I am got him up to see him off. I was kind of worried, when god spoke to me and said give him to me I can take care of him. So I prayed that God would keep him on the straight and narrow path and guide his footsteps, I was tempted to pray for a hedge of protection, but I do not think James would learn anything that way. Even Job had the hedge removed.

So I gave him to God, I am wondering how things are going for him though.

Today is Skips birthday. I fixed him breakfast in bed and we sung happy birthday to him. I like to make birthdays kind of special if I can!

Well since there are things that are funner than blogging, I need to get moving!

My family is waiting! God Bless, and enjoy the day, after all God did give it to you!

Are you sleeping

No I am not, would I like to be yesssssss! Well had a late night last night. I did not get home until 11pm and did not get to bed till 11:30. This is the time when I do not what to brush my teeth, just wanted to go to bed, but I was a good girl and did it any way! 1 point for me!!

So glad it is Friday:) Wooo Hooooo time for the weekend off! James goes for his first day of RSP on Saturday, hope you are ready Buddy! I think I am going to rest as much as possible on Saturday.

Tomorrow is Skips birthday!! He will be 46! Probably should not have told that! I think we might go out tonight with some friends of ours, not sure. Money is an issue!(It usually is) I am going to make him a card today! I can not believe that we will have been married 18 years as of April 20, 2009. That means we have known each other for over 20 years. We started dating when I was in High School, He was the only guy I ever dated in high school (lol) Seems so long ago! He was such a gentleman, I am wondering what happen (lol just kidding) Still love him with all my heart!

Speaking of sleeping you know you can look at that in a spiritual way! Am I sleeping spiritually, or am I awake and doing Gods will? Good Question! (Brianna, I am not answering myself yet). Take the time today to look at your life and find out if you are asleep or awake in Christ. If you are asleep, wake up and get moving forward, If you are awake, pat yourself on the back and get ready for the next valley.

Time for me to wake up and get to work. Good Day All!

Blah, Blah, Blah, Blah

OK that is how I felt this morning when I got up. I did not feel like fixing breakfast, besides no butter for my toast any way, I did not fix anything for lunch, so I had to use my imagination. I brought can chicken, lettuce, salad dressing, croutons, and some carrots! Guess what I am having a salad. You know I used to hate salad, would not touch it with a ten foot pole, but I am trying to change my eating habits. So I tried some salads. Discovered that I could tolerate romaine lettuce, and there you go, I now eat a salad with very little lettuce lol!

Well had my glass of milk for breakfast at the office! On a good note I received $25 for my birthday from Skips mom! Woo hoo for me! Now if I can just talk Skip out of his $25 birthday money I would be doing good! (JK)

I know today will be good. God is already showing me his goodness today. He helped me figure out what to do for lunch, I got money in the mail, and me and Skip laughed and talked all the way to work, That was God right there! It is so easy to see his goodness when all is going well!

Here is food for the soul!
Maybe we should look for His goodness when everything is going wrong, and maybe we will realize that things aren't going so wrong after all!

Dare To Love

I am remembering the movie fireproof and I am thinking about the dare to love challenge that Kirk Cameron did in the movie! Am I loving my husband to the fullest? I had a dream last night that we got a divorce! What a nightmare. maybe God is trying to tell me something. I think that is what I am going to work on this week, maybe next week to since this one is almost over.

A rainy day today. The office is so quite I can hear my stomach grumbling! I burnt my lunch for today. I left it cooking while I was getting dressed and it overcooked. Oh well I am sure that if I Bless it that God will help it taste good.

I don't think I would like to eat fried bananas, but that reminds me of green eggs and ham! don't think I want to eat that either.

God is so good, he has been helping me all week to do the right thing, by the way is not easy. I keep forgetting that when someone slaps you in the face(not literally) you are suppose to turn and let them slap the other side! Ouch!! Gods grace is sufficient!!

So say a prayer for little ones they are sick. I will be taking them to the doctor tonight, which means that I will miss church. I am so sad about that, But God is still Good!

Circle, Square, Triangle............

OK Brianna, this is for you lol!

OK Skip and I are the Circle
Our kids, James, Jess, Robert and David, are in the square around the Circle, add you and we have triangle right! OK enough of that lol! Love you too Brianna!

Well today has been great, I have actually been busy working! Ha!
And checking on James and Jess phone calls, James is in so much trouble!

I am heading to the Gym tonight. It was great to start back going last night!
Good to get back in to routine.

I am trying a new soup for lunch, hope I like it, I am hungry!! Its called Creamy Tomato Parmesan Bisque! Its way high in sodium. I actually forgot my lunch that I cooked this morning, I could be eating to yummy hamburger steaks Aggggggggg.
Well the soup is OK, just not very filling.

Briannas Circle, square, triangle things reminds me of an old saying from my school days. Circle, circle, dot, dot, now I have my cootie shots. (Did I use to say that)
I missed my school days, hanging out with friends, playing in the band. It was so much fun.

Well better go finish lunch, and read some more in the book I am reading!

By the way Brianna, I am back on my diet now! Little or no bread and no sodas and no sweets. Hmmmmm Sounds like fun.

Happy is me!

OK that was really bad English, but I said it any way! So far this week has been great, I know it will only get better ( at least I am speaking faith)

I have a Dr. Appointment at 4:30 just some routine stuff.

I can't believe James will be going for his 1st weekend of Rsp (pre basic for Guard) this weekend. I hope you are ready buddy!

OK I blew my diet big time this weekend, but you know what I am going to work it out at the gym this week.

I am trying to decide if I want to go to Winter jam in Columbia, I don't think I am going to go. I would rather stay home and enjoy my Friday night, like that is going to happen lol!

OK here some food for the soul! God might not keep you from it, but he will definitely keep you through it.

Chorus of Through The Fire.

He never promised that the cross would not get heavy
And the hill would not be hard to climb.
He never offered victory without fighting,
but he said help will always come in time.
Just remember when you're standing
in the valley of decision
and the adversary says give in,
Just hold on, Our Lord will show up,
and he will take you through the fire again.

New attitdue!

OK prayer helps, especially when you get your pastor praying! I have got to remember that Gods love is enough, and only he can give real peace!

My birthday dinner was great last night, way too much food to eat, but good anyway. I am enjoying valentines day by relaxing on my sofa at home.

Tell someone you love them today, hug a friend and be kind to your family!

Happy Valentines Day!

I Will Praise You In This Storm

Today I am fighting depression. I know what God wants me to do, but I don't want to do it. I don't want to get hurt again! I have faith in God but not men! So where does that leave me. Last night was rough, Imust say that my Love tank is quite empty! A night I was once looking forward to now I am dreading. I will have to go and put on the happy face for all to see. It will take Gods Grace to do it. Inside my heart is breaking! I refuse to cry again! I am trying hard to remember that God will bring me through this and it will turn out for my Good! I just have to keep singing,

I will praise You in this storm
I will lift my hands
for you are who you are
no matter where I am
And every tear I cry, you hold in your hand
And though my heart is torn
I will praise you in this storm

By Casting Crowns

Love is.......

Sometimes it is hard to Love! God keeps bringing the verse to mind!

1 Corinthians 13:3-7 (King James Version)
3And though I bestow all my goods to feed the poor, and though I give my body to be burned, and have not charity, it profiteth me nothing.
4Charity suffereth long, and is kind; charity envieth not; charity vaunteth not itself, is not puffed up,
5Doth not behave itself unseemly, seeketh not her own, is not easily provoked, thinketh no evil;
6Rejoiceth not in iniquity, but rejoiceth in the truth;
7Beareth all things, believeth all things, hopeth all things, endureth all things.

I am asking myself am I doing these things, I don't think so, guess I have a lot of work left to do on that subject! Good thing all things are possible with God!

Well today is another work day! I can not wait for tomorrow, to go an eat with all my friends. It will be fun! Guess I better get back to work!

Think on 1 Corinthians 13, are you showing Love today!!

Birthday Update

OK my birthday was good, was not the best, but should I complain! No that's not God would want! I am Blessed to be another year older, with a good job, a place to live and great friends and family!

I am breaking my diet today and eating a sub from dominoes, hey there is always tomorrow!

Well it is getting close for James to leave for the RSP in the National Guard. Thank goodness that he will only be gone for the weekend.

We watched a tape about basic training, I think that was an eye opener for James!

Well Friday we are going to eat at Myabis Japanese restaurant. I am excited, I can't wait to go.

Guess I better finish lunch. Catch up with everyone later!

TO Be or Not to Be....

HAPPY

That is the question today!

Today I turned 36 years old! Happy birthday to me....! I know sometimes you have to create your own joy.

Well today did not start out to bad. I got to birthday wishes from friends on facebook when I got up this morning. I am sure there are more to come. Of course James was the first to officially wish me Happy Birthday in person lol! The Robert and David followed suit. They are so sweet!! By the way that is a lot of faith speaking James lol!

Well things could have been better had others been so thoughtful this morning but some things you just shouldn't blog about! Of course my best friend called me this morning and wished me happy birthday, I think that made my day, she had me laughing most of the morning.

So toady I can decide to be happy, or have the mullygrubs(and yes I said that!) I have decided to be happy and enjoy what I have. I am Blessed with wonderful children, good friends and a great family. What more could you want on your birthday!! OK don't answer that.

And I must not forget to thank God for making it all possible for with him all things are possible!

Disappointment

Well today I was expecting to stay at home with my husband and enjoy his company, its been a while! Of course it did not quite work out that way! Of course I am tired and still not up to par from my dentist appointment and that makes me even more emotional about the whole situation.

So I must ask myself, what is God trying to teach me here! Right now I don't have an answer for that. But I know that God will show me!

So I am making a choice to just enjoy my day and just rejoice that my name is written in the Lambs Book of Life! So here goes I am going to put a movie on, sit on the couch and do absolutely nothing today, and hope that my husband makes it home soon!

The Dentist

ok I survived the dentist, I think I need a t-shirt! Mouth is still numb and my teeth are trying to hurt! I was praying the whole time I was there. My arms were shaking so bad that I could not grip the arm of the chair, but prayer prevailed and my nerves calmed. I was blessed for my effort, the cost of my visit was cheaper than I thought and I got my meds for free.

God Is Good, All The Time

No Fear

OK that is an oxymoron for me right now! I have dentist appointment today and I am trying not be afraid and nervous! I know God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power, love and a sound mind. Help me Lord :)

I have a new look today, got a perm put in, so I have a few curls now! Woo Hoo. I am thinking that today will require a little extra prayer. I am going the dentist, then work and then I am going on a girls night out(I don't know any of the girls but one). This should be fun!!

I am hoping to get lots of rest tomorrow so I can catch up on my sleep. Seems lately I am just physically drained! I have to remember that the Joy of the Lord is my strength.

OK time for me to get a little work done and then off to the dentist. Say a prayer for me!

Regrets & Sorrow

Yesterday was a rough day for me! I was tired, aggravated and angry most of the day! It seemed I let everything upset me! Even the little things.

I ask myself why is this? Well as I look back I realize it was pride and selfishness! If things did not go my way I was upset.

God is teaching me that My ways are not his ways, and my thoughts are not his thoughts. Did I ask God what he wanted me to do? Did I pray when I was angry or upset? Did I ask God for Strength and peace? No, I depended on on my own self!

So today I am asking God to forgive me, and to help me to depend on him, to look to him for all things. I am asking that he helps me to remember to pray always, and to give thanks in all things, because it will be worth it after all!!!

I leave you with this thought! Don't be discouraged when you fail miserably, God is there with love and mercy, he will forgive you and pick you up!

I am reminded of a verse in the Bible when some one was asked how many times should I forgive someone? God said 70 x 7! I think his answer is saying forgive often, love well and be at peace!

Denying Yourself

Lately I have started eating better and working out to lose weight and get in shape. This is needed for my health and peace of mind. It has not been easy thing to start.

Every morning I am tempted to get up and skip breakfast, at lunch I am tempted to eat what I shouldn't and then when I get off work I am tempted not to go work out! Then I remember that my body is a temple of God, and I should treat it with respect. I have to deny my self, but I have found in the process that I enjoy eating breakfast, my lunch lately has been awesome, and I truly love working out! Who would have thought it.

I find that the more we deny ourselves the things that are bad for us, the more we enjoy the things that are good for us! Give it a try !