Time to breathe!

Ok this is the first time in a month that I have had time to breathe. I have been through a lot of ups and downs. God has been there with me all the time. Urging me on when I thought I could not go on, holding my hand when I thought no one was there, and holding me when I cried. He never left me. For a while I was carrying this heavy load. God helped me though to see that he could make that load light. He is so good to me!

I have been missing James terribly. I hang onto every letter, to every word. I was so glad he called on the 5th, I can not wait to hear form him again. He has always help me to stay focused on God, now I am having to do that myself. I miss his dry sense of humor too. He is starting to bring that into his letters now. I am counting down the days to his return. Its hard to leave him in Gods hands.

Jess is slipping away from me. I can't seem to bring her back. We are always at each others throats. hard to keep the peace and still be mom. I am giving her to God to! I am praying he will help me be the mother she needs. I love her and I want her to have all that God has to offer, I hope she realizes how much she needs him.

I am feeling very Blessed right now. I guess you could say I am up on the mountain waiting to go down into the valley. Its great up on the mountain, but it is down in the valley where we grow.

Robert's birthday was yesterday. We went out to eat, Jess paid for half, the dinner was enjoyable. We are going to take Robert to Chuckie Cheeses for his Birthday on Friday. he can not wait. He is such a character. he says the cutest things, and he acts like he is grown.

David is doing better, I am trying to work with him on not pitching a fit when he does not get his way, we are getting there.

Well guess I better go. I just mailed James another letter. Have fun today and hug someone you love!