TRUST

Ok, that is a serious issue with me right now. I want say to much here, but I will say that I am having a hard time trusting any one.

The trip to six flags was a bust due to the incomptence of school officials. James was upset and that upset me more than any thing. I could not believe how rude the principal of Fox Creek was when I went to him about the whole issue. Maybe he had a rough day or something, I don't know, but that really bother me. He is over my school my kids are in. Theres another trust issue again.

I need to get back to where I need to be with God, this is my main issue now. I don't think I trust myself enough to do the things he wants me to do. For the first time today, I did not look forward to Church. We had to leave half way through because Skip had to go to work. can't decide weather I am happy about that or not. I don't know if I can give God what he wants, control. It scares me to death to let go of it!

So does that mean that I don't trust God enough?

Still seeking, still praying, still looking, still trying!