Life Goes On!

So today has been a pretty quite day! James just called with a headache wanting to go home, that means clinic tonight so James absence will be excused. Robert is doing well in school, David is having issues. He is not getting along with the other kids and does not want to wake up from his nap. I have talked with him about this, maybe it will help. He was punished last night also.

Jessica is now wanting to leave school early, since James did, told her she had to wait till at least 2:30.

I am still loosing weight. It is an up and down process. Just have to keep working at it.

My cousin and Aunt joined the gym. That makes me happy. A friend of mine named Chalissa joined too. Her and her husband go in the morning though.

I am planning a trip to the state museum with the kids May 23. I have 4 free passes. It should be fun.

On May 30, I am suppose to take James and a few of his friends to six flags. I think that could be fun. I hope it works out.

I have a dentist appointment on April 30, I will see how well I have been cleaning my teeth.

Well have a great day, hug someone and make a friend laugh today!

TRUST

Ok, that is a serious issue with me right now. I want say to much here, but I will say that I am having a hard time trusting any one.

The trip to six flags was a bust due to the incomptence of school officials. James was upset and that upset me more than any thing. I could not believe how rude the principal of Fox Creek was when I went to him about the whole issue. Maybe he had a rough day or something, I don't know, but that really bother me. He is over my school my kids are in. Theres another trust issue again.

I need to get back to where I need to be with God, this is my main issue now. I don't think I trust myself enough to do the things he wants me to do. For the first time today, I did not look forward to Church. We had to leave half way through because Skip had to go to work. can't decide weather I am happy about that or not. I don't know if I can give God what he wants, control. It scares me to death to let go of it!

So does that mean that I don't trust God enough?

Still seeking, still praying, still looking, still trying!

Been there, Done that!

You know last night I realized that I am very far from where God wants me to be. And I was slipping further and further away. Just little compromises here and there, but they were pulling me away.

I was up last night praying and talking with God. I want to serve him, and do his will, but it is not always easy. I have to be willing to forsake all others and follow him, can I do that, I am praying. I could use a friend to talk to, but there's not anyone that I can. So I keep on praying, God said he can meet all my needs! I am praying and waiting.

It lifts a heavy burden off me to be back depending on God, I am not able to do it myself.

Sometimes you wonder why the ones you love and care about can not see how you are hurting, and how you really feel. Guess we get good at hiding things, pretending is so much easier than the real thing. it is so much easier to put on that happy face of contentment than to be glummy all the time. Who needs that.

God is helping me cope. He is a real friend, he promises to never forsake me, to never leave me, and to always be there for me. I am grateful.

Keep on hanging on, we have come to far to turn and go back now.

I've been tired and I've been weary,
I've been footsore on my journey
But I've come to far to ever turn around.
I've seen day when clouds hung dreary
many times when friends weren't cheary.
but I've come to far to turn and go back now.

Chorus:
I am one day closer home, than I've ever been before
In my heart I have a longing just to walk on heavens shore.
In my soul I feel the glory of this brand new peace I've found,
I'm way to close to turn and go back now.

I've been tempted and I've been tested
my progress seemed arrested,
I can truly say God has never let me down.
In the battle I've retreated,
but I've never been defeated.
I've come to far to turn and go back now.

Chorus
I am one day closer home, than I've ever been before
In my heart I have longing, just to walk on heavens shore
In my soul I feel the glory of this bran new peace I've found
I'm way to close to turn and go back now.

Complicated

That's what life can be sometime.

Families are so fragile sometimes. Families are all about compromise and love. and by the way you need a lot of love because love covers a multitude of sins.

Sometimes when you are in a big family, you start to forget who you are, and you get dragged down with all the issues going on. Sometimes you need to turn up the music and turn it up loud. sometimes you need to play an old movie that makes you laugh, just remember that times are not always so bad! 

Of course prayer should be your first course of action, and calling on God is always the best choice.

Sometimes it just helps to remember who you are. Remember that you family loves you even when it does not seem like it, and even when it gets ugly, remember that it will get better again.

Tell your parents you love them, hug your sister or brother, and overall just try to be kind to each other.

Its been a while!

Well its been a while and I have been busy!

Just got back from a week long vacation to Virginia, which James, Jess and Skip made possible by covering for me. James watched the kids and Jess and Skip covered the office most of the time.

I had a really great time on the trip. We went to see the Chesapeake Bay Bridge, that was fun. I love the views from the bridge. We ate at the Restaurant in the middle of the bridge. The fish I had was huge. It was good though. The next day we went to Jamestown, that was very interesting. I love learning about history. Seeing the settlement was nice. It was a long day of walking and picture taking. I especially liked the ships. That was neat, we actually got to go on a couple and see what it was like back then to be on a ship. The next day we went to Yorktown, not quite as big as Jamestown, but just as cool! We also ate at Unos Pizzeria. That food was awesome. I hope to go there again soon. They have one in Lexington, I hope it is as good as the one in VA. On Friday we left to come home, it was crazy and hectic, but we made it back by 10:00 that night. I was glad to be home.

Saturday I was going to stay home and do nothing, but that plan did not work. I ended up at work, working lol! Oh well it was not that bad I guess.

Sunday was Easter Sunday! I was not exactly happy with the Church services, but staying at home and just relaxing, was great!

Well today I am back at work, and I am actually glad to be here. Can't wait to get back to my normal routine. It will be nice.

Well guess better go! Hug someone today and tell them you love them.

Contentment is not easy

Especially for me! I find it hard to be happy in my situation. the bible says to rejoice in all things, because your name is written in the Lambs book of life! I forget that so easy. I take my eyes off God and put them on me, and that is where it all goes wrong!

Today has been a quite day! Skip brought me lunch, it was great! (Thanks Baby) I had sirloin tips and gravy, with a baked potato. Kind of fattning but good! We deserve a treat every now and then!

Jess is going to the movies tonight. I hope she has fun. I also hope she manages to make it home on time for a change.

James has not said what he wants to do, but I am sure it is coming! I get to do some cleaning and laundry tonight ! Woo Hoo! Good thing Jess wanted to go off, she cleaned some last night! She did a good job.

I am trying to get the house cleaned and the laundry caught up before I leave to go on vacation. So Skip will not have to much to deal with, while I am gone!

I have to say that Virginia is calling my name, I am ready to leave. To just have some fun!

Dee is ready to go too. I am calling her on the phone as I am typing. I hope she is off from work.

Little David has been having trouble on the school bus, kids are calling him names and one kid pushed him down in the seat. Mom went to the school and talked to the principle, I think that might have been a mistake, she prob should have talked to the Bus driver first. But hopefully it will get resolved.

Ok well guess I better go! be good to a friend!

Its the little things that matter!

I never knew that I would miss holding his hand, or feeling his touch, but I do. I never knew I would miss the little things. My love tank is quite empty right now! I need to know someone cares! I could really use friend right now!

Well tonight I am home alone, not good for me, it gives me the mully grubs. The kids are here, but they are in bed. Of course I can not sleep!

Today was ok, I did get to go to the gym today! I worked out with a friend named Cindy, it was nice. We just met recently.

James had a concert tonight that I missed, I am not happy about that either, but the circumstances where strained as always! Hope you did good baby! I am proud of you!

Jess has a game tomorrow. Don't know if I will get to go, we will see. Do good girlie!

I should be in bed now, but I can not sleep!

Tomorrow is another work day! Yipeee!

Well 3 more days to my vacation. I need it. need to get away and be wanted! Need to just go somewhere and forget! Guess this what I needed.

Saturday should be interesting. I am going somewhere, to Alabama maybe, with Angela, I think. I would really like to stay home and get things done around the house, but does not seem to work that way!

Saturday night there is a couple coming over that I work with! Hoping that will be fun!

Then there is Sunday! day to worship God and spend with my family!

Well guess I better try to get some sleep! Let God know someone loves them!